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So. its been a week. A week since I stopped a shoplifter and was told that I was n trouble. A week of suspension with no news from the job. I haven’t heard one thing. I am going thru the motions right now. I have told a few people. I have applied for jobs. One phone interview that seemed to go really well. It was for a district visual manager. An actual district job. One like I had 19 years ago. But this one with an office. And partners. District HR, Manager, Service Manager and Pro Manager. The screening interview was good. He explained everything, the benefits, the role, the support managers and the team. I know that I can do this job. That I want this job. When he told me the starting rate– I knew that I REALLY wanted this job. But then in my little insecure mind– am I able to get this job?

I was sent an assessment — I took it and then he called and said that I passed– and he was forwarding my info and his notes to the Regional Visual Manager, John, so I can continue the interviewing process. Jay knows him. 8 Years ago– but he said he would reach out and put in a good word for me. During the assessment– I kept second guessing my answers– I was like– I know I am going to fail this. I don’t deserve this job, Its out of my league, its too much. The thing is — I did this job for years. I was hired to do this job at that other place then they discontinued it. And of course, why even let me have it or interview for it when it came back. Well why would I since RVP and I did not enjoy each other’s company.

Well I passed the assessment. Now I just have to keep my mind in the positive space of I WILL GET THIS JOB. ok… I need to keep thinking that way. I can hear Dave saying this in my head, even thou he has NO clue in what I can do– or what I actually do– he will tell me to think positive in all cases and that I can do what I set my mind to do. So since I won’t text him and bother him with my selfish needs of hearing him say this… I will just keep hearing his voice in my head 🙂