So– crappy weekend weather wise. I didn’t make any plans for today. I didn’t feel like reaching out to anyone. A texted me to see if I wanted to kayak today– it was only going to be int he 60s and off and on raining– so I said no. We all know that I end up in the water when I get either in or out. We both lacked motivation to do anything really, so I have been sitting on the couch watching Chicogo Fire. I get a snap from C– with some kind of picture of Sangrai. I texted both him and his hubby– what are your plans today. NO answer. They are at home– so I am guessing that they are having some friends over and they didn’t want me over. Brad’s location is coming up “no location” so I bet you he is there with his Heather. Probably the couple from across the street and probably C’s friend B and such. Here are my feelings of self worth crumbling. My SIL is in a town where her family lives– but not the kids. So maybe she needed a day away from her life and her mom is the best at that. I feel a little hurt about that… but understandable. R texted me Friday night– he was out– a bit drunk–wanted me to join him and C for a bit — then he said he was just with brad and heather for dinner. There was no invite for that. I guess I am only good enough for a drink while you are drunk already.

Again– my feelings of self worth are crumbling. For really nothing. A silly holiday that I didn’t want to do anything anyways– but an invite would have been nice.